9/27/2016 0 Comments Fear notLast week I took one of the most impulsive decisions I have ever made without questioning. I took the opportunity to buy a ticket to the Fashionista Conference in New York City. I saw the conference and it took me exactly 4 hours to debate if I should waste my money, until i realized this was an investment for my future. I bought the tickets without telling my parents or friends. I didn't ask for permission from anyone. I did not have air flight tickets, a place to stay, or even sure if I had enough time to miss school for the conference. It was one of my most adult decisions so far. I regret nothing about purchasing that ticket and planning a trip to the city of dreams... but I must admit I am scared.
I am truly frightened about this trip and conference. I am sure it is going to be a unique experience, but how do I know if I am truly ready for this? I will be breathing the same air as Cristian Siriano, and I will sit in the same room as Rachel Roy, there is no reason to be scared, right? The frightening parts are not only being in a huge city that is unfamiliar to me, spending hotel nights alone, or even trying to hail a cab on time. The most frightening part is stepping inside this conference and finding out I don't fit in. It might sound a bit ridiculous to think I would feel out of place in a fashion conference, specially since i have dedicated my lifetime invested to fashion; but how do I know I truly belong to a place like that. There is no way for me to be certain that the industry I love will be able to accept me and love me back. Getting rejected by fashion leaders would be more heartbreaking than having any boy in the world tell me they didn't like me. I have been heartbroken by guys before and I still survive, no big deal. The difference here is that none of those guys have ever defined who I am, or had an incredible impact on my life , they have simply been nice to kiss (some not so nice) guys. They are additions or subtractions that affect me emotionally, but not enough to change everything I am, but this industry is what I am. If I am not loved by the industry that literally defines everything I believe in, how am I supposed to survive that heartbreak? I am probably getting ahead of myself since I am still two months away from this journey. I have time to prepare my bravery to open myself for any scenario. There is no way to reduce my stress, but I just need to be confident and stronger than I have ever been before. Just in case I arrive at the conference and everyone hates me, I am not stepping down form my dreams. No matter what. I need to have this mentality, and keep my priorities straight. I rather struggle finding my way around NYC, than playing it safe and staying in my hotel room. I rather step-up and introduce myself as an outsider who is not attending a design school, but as a student who is aware of global economics and the impacts of fashion in history. This is who I am, and there is no reason to be afraid of that, everything else is just details. This November follow me on my Instagram @log_styleguru and be part of this adventure with me. Do not let any fears tie you down from life changing experiences, take the risk.
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